Recently, I have been struggling with stress--mostly spiritual stress. This entire year has been such an iffy-spiritual year because of how life has been in general: nothing going right, discouragement and overall feeling of being let down.
C'mon, we've all been there!
For me, I tend to blame God because I think of Him having all this power--yet nothing is done no matter how much prayer is integrated into my life--day-by-day-by-day.
I, then started losing faith and finger-pointing at God, telling Him how let down I have been and felt.
Took a trip to Florida back in October, came back and my stress was overwhelming! Had a nocturnal seizure, became anxious and fell into a state of derealization.
It is December, and still feel beat down; however my faith has grown somewhat better because it's all I have against these demons of mental illness.
I can't find any other words to paint such a year of stress, stress and more stress. Of course, this is a condensed version of events and so forth that has shaped the year.
2022 has sucked!
Maybe this is a turning point in my spiritual quest?
Maybe what is, is just meant to be.
I asked God to intervene, as I laid down the tarot cards: there were a few hints in there, things would be okay.
I dealt cards such as: Lovers, Hierophant, Strength and a few other inspiring cards for a little optimism.
Maybe I have been slightly over-dramatic this year?
I could "maybe" many things in my life, but maybe I should just let it be.
I am tired:
A once bloomed rose put through winter.
Where do I stand after the cold?
Life can surely be very unpredictable and trying sometimes. This is why The Tower card is within The Tarot Kingdom:
Unpredictable events...
Dark skies...
Restless...
There is no burning fire in the night, but only a candle lit to signal hope via prayers.
